Wednesday, 09 June 2010

  • Can you stand a stiff job like this?

    I graduated from a university course very similar to the social science discipline 2 years ago. I love writing a lot. Teaching to be is okay but not my ideal one. Thus orking as a teaching assistant has never been my dream job, yet my only job I have ever taken since graduation. The job requirement is not too demanding. Any fresh graduate might be able to get one. The pay is not bad – over the medium among most first-year worker. But the tasks involved is nothing more than typing, photo-coping, typing-in datas, so on and so forth. Sometimes you have to handle naughty-student classes and this may do you a little suffering.

     

    As my ex-colleague said, ‘nobody would like to be a TA (Teaching Assistant)’. Yet it is so hard, in this economic downturn, to get a better job. I mean you can’t even get another job, of even lower payment. So you are paying off your youth, your energy, your enthusiasm towards the world, to such a boring job. I have been undergoing more than 20 interviews, but none gave me an offer. Pathetically, I become a TA of another school again. I really would like to know how to get my dream job, such as: reporter, editor, project coordinator, copywriter, so on and so forth. What qualities are they looking for? To judge my own performance I don’t think I did so badly, but the truth is that no company showed up for me. So people in the above industries, would you please kindly tell me how to hunt the job successfully?

     

  • Why do we have to pray?

    Sometimes we ask silly simple questions like this. Pastors will tell us that God listen to each of our prayers. But in times of adversity, or when we feel that God gives no response to our simple prayers, it is really hard to believe in the fact that God is with us all the time. I was a devoted churchgoer but now I am a bit detached. It doesn’t mean that I don’t believe in Christianity anymore. I just re-think seriously what other people doubts about. For instance, if God listen to every of our prayers, which side will he take if both sides of an argument pray to him, and no side is ‘politically incorrect’? I do pray at times. Yet I think again: why I need to pray to get good cause in return? Sometimes people share: God listen to our prayer. 50 people…100 people pray for a certain person or a certain event, and finally God listen to our prayer. Is God such a calculating being, that ‘more prayer, more blessings’?

    Some would say, ‘praying is an encounter with God’. Yes I know. But there must be time when you genuinely fail to feel His presence no matter how persuasive Christians next to you are. So, what to do? And, why pray? People say that they pray for you, but not virtually taking any constructive action to help you, when they could have taken concrete steps to help you. So, why pray?

Tuesday, 08 June 2010

  • Featured Grownups: (Topic A) Memorial Day

    I am always in a state of memorizing my old days. I am always in a state of feeling like losing something from the past. It seems that the previous days are always better than the current days.

    Em...i should explain myself more clearly. I always want to keep all the friendship i made in the past, but everybody knows it is impossible. When i encounter ex-best friends on the street somedays, and they look nothing surprised but just a simple hi and bye, i feel so hurt and want to cry. I feel bad that we can't develop into conversations just like before. We laughed at silly things and having pointless chit-chats, but now we become strangers again. That's life. So my point is, i would like to farewell my past, or, can it be not the cruel reality?

    Facebook is a very honest tool to show that whether you want to keep the friendship with an individual or not. Although you can edit the privacy control to each of your friends, if you feel really uncomfortable with somebody, you would most probably be unfriend with him or her. Sometimes you would like to peep into someone's life, but would like to hide your info from him or her. But afterall, when everyone of us have more than 150-200 friends in facebook, can we really keep everybody so close with each other, as i dreamt of usually? When i see facebook every day, i feel like saying goodbye to many memorial days.

Friday, 28 May 2010

  • 分開之後給你的情書

    親愛的H,

     

    Hi, 你好嗎? 幾個月不見了。

    按進你的facebook page、你的xanga site時, 有時會不敢看 - 

    我怕那幾個月, 我共你快樂的痕跡會被刪除;

    我更怕看見你現在的生活:開心嗎? 有點戚戚然;失意? 想找你, 但我阻止自己。 

     

    那幾個月, 我們每天都分享, 又互相幫忙...那天突然分開, 我一直想問:你有沒有不習慣?

    我不時會想起, 你把你的背包給我保管的日子

    你把不懂的東西交給我, 而我一一為你做好的日子

    我遇到不明白的事時, 你一臉正經的說起道理來...總令我想偷偷笑

     

    我們不是說好了一連串的計畫嗎?

    現在又剰下什麼呢?

    每天早上醒來就要看看電話、電腦, 有沒有你給我的訊息

    這個持續了半年的習慣

    到你離開以後

    我也忍不住這樣做

     

    朋友說我戀愛時比一般人投入

    比起平時更落力付出所有

    可能是這個原因

    你沒有珍惜?

    是嗎?

     

     

    我應該「醒」嗎?

     

     

     

    你離開了的人